After a long walk.....maybe it's time to take a rest.

ya, we definitely, without any doubts, will miss u......
a gift i got for her. hope she really like it.

so, she decided to go, decided it has come to an end, decided that's the best for her. she said to me, "everything happens for a reason." somehow i think only she can understand what's that really mean. literally speaking, i know what it means but to understand the meaning of it explicitly, i think someone need to go through it only to make them understand this statement.

her last day was yesterday - 11th Nov 2008. just thinking about her leave, i start to sob already. i tot i can't face her and smiling back at her yesterday but advice from herself to me, "just be tough"....and i manage to get thru yesterday bravely and toughly with a warm hug to her and wish her all the best. "thank you" is all i can say to her and i know it can never be enough for what she have taught me all these years. the guidance, the teaching, the advice....she has taught me well....

in one of our emails:
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a: Mai ah neh sad la…
m: Stop already….now start again….U not goodlah...
a: In order to be good, sometimes hv to be bad… but then, bad for myself oni lar.. But one thing I’m proud of, is that I know I have trained you well…
Mai ah neh ler… must be more liddis *smiley face*
m: Kenotlah…….. type also mata berair liao….how to come to work tomorrow???????????
a: Can wan… just need to be tough… we’re just an email/chat away la… after this, u’ll see me ‘green green’ on gmail liao.. hopefully..
m: Need to be tough? I kenotlor. Cham neh……I know we’re just an email/ chat away….it will just feel different without you here. Gonna miss your smiles a lot…
a: U mean u gonna miss my gila-gila laugh la… Don’t worry.. be happy…OK la, sad half day enuff, ok??
m: Ur laugh, ur smiles, ur loceng on ur leg (hehehe), ur way of panggil us, ur cup,…..a lot of u….I know must support ur decision and be happy for u coz you’re happier now than then, but still….. kenot make myself to be happy when I thinking of ur leaving. HAI…..Can I bargain….few days la….half day mana cukup....
a:Liddat ah… ok la… but dun sad so long, yeah? I also sad… but………………..Me happier now? Mmmm… not really also.. cos a lot of things not confirmed in my life… but it was a decision that I hv already made, so I hv to stick to it and strive thru…
m: Please be happy. I wan u to be happy. I wish u happy. Ok?
a: Thanks Mon… I also want you to be happy, ok?
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all the best, the very best, the very very very best to u.....
i really appreciate what u've done for me and thank you for always believe in me.
thank you.