After a long walk.....maybe it's time to take a rest.

ya, we definitely, without any doubts, will miss u......
a gift i got for her. hope she really like it.

so, she decided to go, decided it has come to an end, decided that's the best for her. she said to me, "everything happens for a reason." somehow i think only she can understand what's that really mean. literally speaking, i know what it means but to understand the meaning of it explicitly, i think someone need to go through it only to make them understand this statement.

her last day was yesterday - 11th Nov 2008. just thinking about her leave, i start to sob already. i tot i can't face her and smiling back at her yesterday but advice from herself to me, "just be tough"....and i manage to get thru yesterday bravely and toughly with a warm hug to her and wish her all the best. "thank you" is all i can say to her and i know it can never be enough for what she have taught me all these years. the guidance, the teaching, the advice....she has taught me well....

in one of our emails:
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a: Mai ah neh sad la…
m: Stop already….now start again….U not goodlah...
a: In order to be good, sometimes hv to be bad… but then, bad for myself oni lar.. But one thing I’m proud of, is that I know I have trained you well…
Mai ah neh ler… must be more liddis *smiley face*
m: Kenotlah…….. type also mata berair liao….how to come to work tomorrow???????????
a: Can wan… just need to be tough… we’re just an email/chat away la… after this, u’ll see me ‘green green’ on gmail liao.. hopefully..
m: Need to be tough? I kenotlor. Cham neh……I know we’re just an email/ chat away….it will just feel different without you here. Gonna miss your smiles a lot…
a: U mean u gonna miss my gila-gila laugh la… Don’t worry.. be happy…OK la, sad half day enuff, ok??
m: Ur laugh, ur smiles, ur loceng on ur leg (hehehe), ur way of panggil us, ur cup,…..a lot of u….I know must support ur decision and be happy for u coz you’re happier now than then, but still….. kenot make myself to be happy when I thinking of ur leaving. HAI…..Can I bargain….few days la….half day mana cukup....
a:Liddat ah… ok la… but dun sad so long, yeah? I also sad… but………………..Me happier now? Mmmm… not really also.. cos a lot of things not confirmed in my life… but it was a decision that I hv already made, so I hv to stick to it and strive thru…
m: Please be happy. I wan u to be happy. I wish u happy. Ok?
a: Thanks Mon… I also want you to be happy, ok?
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all the best, the very best, the very very very best to u.....
i really appreciate what u've done for me and thank you for always believe in me.
thank you.

Finally - Fergie

So, this is my 4th post. Heheh..just wanna share about the song i was crazy (still crazying) for a couple of days already.
Finally - by Fergie.

And one of my friend actually listen to it and asked me..."Do you feel this song is so much about u?" Hahahaha.... :)
She knew me so well neh......

Well...the lyric kinda nice too.

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through unopen doors that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

MMMMMMMM

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
Put on another face
Was lost in my own space

Found what it's like to hurt selfishly
I was scared to give up me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made

I Finally got out of my own way
I Finally started living for today
I finally know I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

MMMMMMMM

Finally, Finally yea...

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening,is happening

Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

Ohhhhhhhh!!

Finally, Finally...Finally....

Really a nice song. Reminds me of a lot a lot a lot of ME! :)

Bento # 3:
Last nite, me and my housemates order in Nando's. I think i got too hungry, i can't finish all the chicken even though it's just quarter chicken and 2 side dishes. Normally i'll finish it all and feeling just nice. Maybe because it was order in, the flavour of it got blend somehow. So, i have leftovers for my Bento # 3. Yeahhhhhh!!!!!
It was quite hard to wake up today but still i woke up to make my bento. Hmm....forgot to use my planner hence i wasted about 5 minutes in the kitchen wondering what else to add into my bento....*wink wink*....
Then finally decided to have some "add-on" dishes upon what i already have. (OMG! How to loose weight ah??)
Egg (is a must) and then got this idea to fry my rice with garlic spread, just to make the rice smell (Garlic Spread expiring Sept-08 - courtesy of Sue again) Hahahah...so, i'm helping her to finish it off.

After fry my rice, let it cool off before packed into my container. At the same time, preparing tuna bread with eggs for DD breakfast. :)

Wow...my bento is getting more n more "packed" or should i say more "congested". I just stuff everything i wan to have into the poor small container n make it as tightly-packed as possible. Kekekeke...

And my blog is getting longer too. Yeah!

Noon, i heat my stuff and start to enjoy my lunch. It's nice (i mean the garlic rice, chicken, sausage, za chai...) Haha..actually all is nice. Looks dry but it's quite moist. :)

Really enjoying myself doing this every morning.

Bento # 2:
Yeah!!!!!!!! My 2nd bento!
Sausage (honey BBQ - Nutriplus), fry egg, baby carrots (courtesy of Sue) and crabsticks. :)
Looks a bit dry hor, but nevermind lah. Still have a lot of chance to have space of improvement.

Bento # 1:
It's actually not my 1st bento bcoz i've been packing breakfast (n later become my brunch) since... emmm....since.......dunno when ler....but i've never take picture of it and blog about it...until my commate-coursemate-unimate-housemate-xcolleauge (sue) intro me to this Bento-Ing World. It somehow got me hooked up n now, i'm taking picture of it n will start to blog about it liao.

Just a short one for my 1st bento blog.
(Cincai Porridgy cooked by sue, vege pickles and fried eggs)
It's kinda delicious i must say. :)