...ya, a bomb timer...having said that, i'm controlling it well up to now, i guess. And hope i can overcome it soon or later. either let it explode or cut the correct wire off and stop the timer from ticking in my head. but as for now, i've yet to decide. the clock is still ticking and the time is there or i'm searching for the wire, green, red, yellow to cut. cut it and blow or cut it and off.
metaphorically speaking of course...but this is the state i'm in now.
sad to say, sad to feel this way, and on top of that it's a monday. guess just it's the blue-est of all. *sigh*
i hate the feeling i'm feeling right now. it makes me feel the whole thing is so wrong.
*tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick................*